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Sorry to hear that; one of my relatives was institutionalized here at he end of her life and everyone in the family had hoped it wasn't such a bad place.

Interesting to hear how often the tunnels were used... the very old tunnels under the main building were pretty wild. A real shame it's all in a landfill now.

Thanks! I simply found a massive empty psychiatric hospital while driving around one day, and was fixated on getting inside and trying to understand what happened in these places and why they closed down.

Yes, Adler was the name of one of the buildings at the hospital; the number 2 is probably her ward number. Someone who worked there might know more about the building.

One more thing there are a couple of posts missing at that link. Too bad I didn't record them before they were deleted. I had got lazy and started posting direct and copying later and well I guess someone had the posts deleted because I exposed something. If only I could see them again I would know what direction to look in.

Hey Pookie! everyone. I lost this page when Motts changed the site. I did not remember what it was since I was using the latest post function to get here. Anyway some guy worried about people posting names on the cornered page posted in the forum asking they be removed and i came to look and recognized stuff and started surfing and found my old posts. Here is where I began posting stuff in November 2013 http://www.topix.com/f...nj/TV02FNMT3GE8K208B
It was a bad day on waking then I realized I had forgotten something I had remembered the day before that had made me quite hopeful. I figure it was something that would lead to finding others. Anyway how I got out of the funk that time was to start recording my returning memories and thoughts as they came so that I would have a record. I posted them hoping to find others. No luck from that site. I did find one guy who was there before I was born who described the same things. We spoke for a week and in that 7 days he got triggered and cut me off. He had survived by suppressing everything. His life was hard and he had been in prison for a long time too as were his brothers still. The older brother has died and the younger is still inside. His brothers were in there with him as well.
If you try to read this it is not a linear story. It is the recording of memory fragments as they return out of sequence. Take it easy reading it. The stuff is horrifying and very ugly. I also add in what has happened since I was triggered to remember in my attempts to get my records and police action.
I hope everyone is doing well I have kept on keeping on. I know a little more now about my PTSD than I did previously and understand that a lot of why I cannot get help is how the abuse and the PTSD affects the way I see things and therefore describe them.
Yea :) Just cause I still exist and find ways to cope does not mean I have not and do not suffer.

This is the end of the light source going into the projector, not the projector itself. The dial controls the speed of the feed of the carbon rod creating the light (which slowly burns up) and has nothing to do with the framing rate.

Back again reading over the sight. I hope Joseph Pimental is doing well even though I do not see new posts on this page.
I reread your post that I responded to and it seems odd to me that I did not recognize and mention that feeling of paralysis you describe. In REM sleep some mechanism of the brain paralyses the body so you don't injure yourself while running around in your dreams. You describe a state I endured for years after being sent on to just as abusive foster care from the hell hole I was in. I have deduced that it was me in REM sleep becoming conscious of being in that state but not realizing I was asleep. It also happens when I stop breathing in my sleep and forces me awake. Turns out I have sleep apnea.
If this was happening as a child and started then I would bet money it was PTSD related to whatever happened to you in Gaebler. I only figured out since my last post here that I have had PTSD since my time in custody as a child, possible even from before then.
Anyway I hope you are well and have worked out the causes of what ails you. Even if you can't fix it knowing is some relief.

Love the broken glass at the center of the 12 and the pile of glass or powder on the metal rod! Perfect lighting and depth of field! Great website! Thanks for sharing and for all the written details.

chill out Mr Williams they are all former residents speaking to each other about the people they knew trying to connect with each other. If you had been locked in a hell hole maybe you'd understand how it stays with you forever regardless of what you try to do.

You guys need to stop posting people's last names because if your signing your real name, repercussions can happen regarding medical privacy violation, i.e. HIPPA [the health care privacy act]. If you need to find people to connect from this school, I kindly suggest that you do so off of this public forum and through e-mail or over the phone. You are potentially violating the privacy of these former patients.

Please edit the post by Tina Marie Serir Abdallah on Tuesday, March 15th 2016. She listed FULL names of the students and that is a privacy breach and potentially can bring a lawsuit against this website. Just remove the last names of the last two students listed for their privacy.

Good work

Very cool pics . Be careful w mold . Are there a lot of bugs there ??

Thanks motts, I can't wait

Who is the little kid sitting on top the mountain? Yes - I remember how hot my butt was on this slide!! I don't remember the Pompei Mt. V story behind it but I remember Little Toot and the slide....maybe it's not a kid but it looks like one?