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- Location: Greystone Park Psychiatric Center (view comments)
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- Location: Danvers State Hospital (view comments)
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- Location: Foster State Hospital (view comments)
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- Location: Harperbury Hospital (view comments)
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She couldn’t comprehend the hospital’s rules. She went into her bedroom to escape the racket of people cackling, shoes squeaking, Bob Barker barking from the T.V. set, and the fax shrilly ringing. The noise hurt her ears. The next thing she knew a crowd of men stormed her room. Pinning her limbs behind her back they carried her kicking and screaming to a dirty, barren room. Unceremoniously, they dumped her on a gym mat, rushed out and locked the door.
She was bewildered as to why they would play a trick on her. She panicked even more because the walls were closing in on her. Banging on the door she screamed in vain to be freed.
She thought they wanted her to do gymnastics on the gym mat. After several handsprings she found instead the men surged back in. She fought them tooth and nail, but was overpowered. They forced her on a table and tied her in four point restraints. Outnumbered but not defeated she escaped twice, shouting gleefully she was the great Houdini reincarnate. She thought surely her cleverness would win her release. Each time they tied the leather tighter until she was truly trapped.
She thought that they wanted her to pee on herself, and so she did. They just took her gown away. She laid naked and spread eagle for all to see.
After a time her terror grew so great that she forgot where she was. She forgot she was in restraints.
She thought a great epidemic had swept the nation. Stricken, contagious and in isolation, paralyzed and dying, she was in desperate need of someone to hold her hand and comfort her, to tell her she was not alone. A worried nurse peeked in the window in the door, but didn’t stop. Because of the epidemic the staff shortage was severe. They too were dying.
She passed into a soft green space. She watched her soul shine and ascend toward Heaven. Before entering Heaven’s gate her soul was examined and found wanting. She crashed into the depths of Hell.
Later when she felt more cognizant her doctor came to visit. She stretched her hand to touch his hand. He stepped back swiftly, and her heart plummeted.
By the time she left seclusion the other patients were afraid of her. Her moans and screams of pain had echoed through the halls at night and sounded animal not human.
I wish someone would have thought to hold my hand.
- Location: Fuller State School and Hospital (view comments)
- Gallery: Disturbed
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- Location: Pennhurst State School (view comments)
- Gallery: The Sadness
Today I am a health care advocate. I work in nursing facilities. I work with a great guy who was in a state institution for people with intellectual disabilities for decades. He's been living in his own apartment for a few decades and has had an incredibly valuable and fulfilling life since. I am so glad it wasn't wasted.
The other day we were talking to a women about the conditions she is subjected in the nursing facility she told us she was scared of the nursing aid who "cared" for her in the morning. For example, she threatened to drop her on the floor and break her head if she didn't stop complaining. My coworker told her with lots of compassion that he knew, because he had been there many times. She was afraid to report because of the repercussions, but agreed to talk to state ombudsman about her options and the protections he could provide. When I talked to the ombudsman a few weeks later he told me he had gone to visit her only to learn that she had reported the nurse to the facility administration who had fired the abusive aid. That took so much strength. I think it was the compassion of my friend that sparked it in her.
I worked in a state hospital in NH briefly in high school. There were a few good staff and most were average and grumpy with no training. Just dumb trainings that made no sense to them. The day staff never saw the night staff except at shift change. In my experience in psychiatric hospitals when the staff are alone with you some of them are abusive. Well, there goes my ptsd. Anyway, some people are blind to the abusive ways of their coworkers either because they look the other way on purpose or they are in another room and don't see it. A lot of people might think the way they treat others is appropriate behavior modification when it is experienced as abusive. When people have been institutionalized and leave the institution with the proper supports they prosper. Plus it is a hell of a lot cheaper for society. Its a good thing.
- Location: Pennhurst State School (view comments)
- Gallery: The Sadness
- Location: Norwich State Hospital (view comments)
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- Location: Rockland Psychiatric Center (view comments)
- Gallery: Infiltration
- Location: Rockland Psychiatric Center (view comments)
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- Location: Gaebler Children's Center (view comments)
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- Location: Buffalo State Hospital (view comments)
- Gallery: Thorazine Dream
- Location: Buffalo State Hospital (view comments)
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- Location: Metropolitan State Hospital (view comments)
- Gallery: Clarity
- Location: Metropolitan State Hospital (view comments)
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